So I've been thinking a lot about my reaction to Wednesday's visit to the Prof, my diabetes specialist, and I've realised that what pissed me off the most is that I felt he only sees the disease not me, well not the real me.
He is good at what he does, one of the best in Perth in fact, and he has years and years of experience. But does he see me or only what he wants for me?
I know he wants me to be a controlled diabetic.
I know that he knows that losing weight will help.
I know that he has my best interests at heart.
But I don't know if he sees me, the square peg that very rarely fits into the round hole of anything.
I have 3 types of arthritis and none responded to the medication like they should, in fact I could say that the medications made no difference at all.
I have type 2 Diabetes, and a Low GI food diet, medication and even exercise (when I was at the pool) made only a slight bit of difference in the long run. Even losing 12 kgs didn't bring my blood sugars down to even close to normal, in honesty if made a slight difference for a short period of time.
So while it is good to have all the medical knowledge in the world, if you don't see the person, if you don't listen to the person, can you cure the person?
Now I am not saying that I am a perfect person, doing all the right things all the time, hell no. I am the first to admit that I break the rules all the time, especially when I am stressed - which lately is all the time. But I am trying the hardest I can to do the right thing, but when it comes down to it I am human and I am me and maybe, just maybe you need to think outside the box of this disease to help me.
Is that asking too much?