NEVER BEFORE IN MY LIFE have I let people know my true weight, not even my hubby knew. Of course my doctors did (all of them), my dietitian did, but scales were never part of my household and so it was only occasionally at the doctors that I actually found out my weight.
I know that back in 1996 when I had surgery I weighed 121kg and I know that prior to losing the weight on the Arava (side effect not taken for weight loss) I weighed 122kg. I also know that I was probably up around 125kg at my heaviest.
So there, it is now out there.
When I first went to Dr Cohen (Mercy Bariatrics) I was on the way back up from my lowest point of 109.8kg (after going off the Arava), I was at 116.9kg. Three weeks later prior to starting the VLCD I was 117.2kg. So still steadily going up.
You see, I have weighed between 120-125kg for about 30 years, I would lose as much as 5kg through dedicated long term effort (exercise or diet or both) then slowly it would go back up to around the same. It seems that was where my body was happy. Of course the side effects were high blood pressure (on 2 medications for that) and a worsening group of arthritis and back symptoms and of course Type 2 Diabetes. So while my body was happy, it wasn't really.
Like most people, I don't always eat well or make the best choices, but I do believe portion control rather than eating the wrong type of food has been my downfall. Even when on the Low GI diet, I did not lose weight, and it only marginally made my BG levels better.
Now in past posts I railed against my Diabetes Specialist for even suggesting I have bariatric surgery, now I want to hug him.
12 days post op I now weigh 104.5kg (I was 110.4kgs on the morning of my operation). I can't remember the last time I weigh this little (yes I know it is not that little in the scheme of things).
I am 169-170cm in height (depends on the person measuring me) and so I was morbidly obese before I started this journey.
I had a 50/50 chance of having a stroke or heart attack within the next 5 years, not great odds. I am working hard to lessen those, taking the drastic step of having 2/3 of my stomach removed is drastic, it is not the 'easy way out' as there is nothing easy about this.
But I think I am the happiest I have been in years. Today I put on a size 20 top and it fit, I bought it online and it got delivered today, I thought it would be weeks before I would be able to fit into it and look good (I was wearing 24/26 pre surgery). But it looks great on and the smile on my face is huge.
I still have a long way to go, as my doctor wants me down at 76kgs, while I will be happy to get to 85, but just maybe I can get there.
My BMI has already dropped from 41 to 36.4, so still morbidly obese, but almost down to just obese. Small victories and small steps.
I have also rocked this surgery and already am back on semi solid foods, yesterday I had a very soft poached egg and it was so good after weeks of the VLCD and then post surgery of fluids.
Today I had some baked beans for breakfast, a small tin of tuna for lunch and for dinner a small serve of poached fish. I am appreciating food so much more, given that I will never be able to eat more than 1 cup of food when I am back to full diet, but it is worth it. Sure there are the daily mult-vitamins to compensate for the lack of fruit and vegies but a small sacrifice.
I just can't stop smiling.
Oh and my Blood Glucose is almost normal and I have an appointment with my specialist at the end of February to see if I can get off all meds, at the moment I am only on 500gms of Metformin after breakfast and after dinner. I will hopefully be off my blood pressure meds too some time in the future.
I will be able to get on the floor again to play with my grandkids, I won't be so embarrassed at the swimming pool, I will be able to fly without worrying about who is sitting next to me - and hopefully will one day be able to put the tray table down and not have it rest on my tummy.
New life here I come. Thanks so much to my family and work colleagues and friends, who have been so supportive, who are so caring and in my corner for this journey.
Thanks for popping by xxx