So putting a half glass full on the whole going onto Insulin, at least I now no longer have to do 2 injections a day plus the evening Insulin as I am off the Byetta as it did nothing for me - no weight loss and only marginal dropping of my BGLs at the beginning.
So before retiring to the Land of Nod tonight I will start my Lantis Insulin injection at 10ml, then I need to check my BGL in the morning prior to breakfast, after 4 nights of 10 ml (and the subsequent morning checks), if it is not going down, I need to increase to 12, then 14, then 16, then 20, then 24, then 28 etc until I start to get some results.
So the waiting (no pun intended and of course it would be spelt differently) game begins. Will this work? One can only hope.
When I saw John (my pysch) on Monday I told him I was struggling with feeling broken and fragmented, I feel like I no longer have the ability to see the glass as half full. He found one for me though, many years ago there would not have been medication for Diabetes - so true.
Still this feeling of being fragmented is a worry. I am so scared that if I let one little shard go I will fracture into a million pieces.
I am sure that attending counselling will help in the long run, but right about now it feels like I have just lifted the corner of Pandora's Box and all that is within will coming bursting out at a rate that is too fast for me to cope with.
Suppression may lead to depression, but I'm sort of scared that non suppression will lead to insanity!
I'd like to welcome my 2 new followers, Wanderlust and Melissa, 2 wonderful cyber friends who along with The Elephant's Child send me so much love that it brings tears to my eyes - thanks ladies. And of course there is my Mum (Mimsie) who has always been there for me.
Today I had my injections into my back, hopefully they will bring me some relief and I can get back to the pool and walking. I expect though that the cortisone will increase my readings for a few days as well.
Tonight we had the lovely Low GI Chicken Curry from this post - it really is delicious.
Thanks for popping by and sharing you love and support, I am really trying to get the golden moon back here again xxx