Entry Number 23

There maybe some good news for me on the horizon. I will be undergoing a pain management treatment in a couple of weeks, and if it works, my lower back and leg pain could be gone.

This will allow me to exercise a little more, and should coincide with our local pool opening for summer as well.  So if I can lose a little more weight that will help bring down my BG levels.

But most of all, reducing my pain, thus reducing some of my stress, will also help my BG levels as it is a known fact that stress can impact on your levels.

I will be off to see the Prof in a couple of weeks as well, and I am sure my three monthly test will most likely show a higher level than last time.  I know he won't be pleased, but I will plead my case and see if we can avoid going on insulin for just a little while longer, hoping that getting back into the pool and having less pain will work their magic.

Walking out of the pain specialist yesterday I felt so much lighter, so here is the lovely rising full moon, lets hope I can keep in the lightness of being frame of mind for the rest of this week at least.

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Entry Number 22

So the week from hell has moved into another week.  I have been so stressed that I just haven't even bothered to test my BG levels, I know they will be high.

But I must start again, I see the Prof in a little over a month, so better have something to take with me, although there will be the 3 monthly blood test which will give him an overview.

I really hope he doesn't add insulin to the mix, but what will be will be I suppose.

Will post some new recipes next week, and try and be here on a more regular basis.

The Dark Side of the Moon is alive and well, but there is a glimmer of hope as tonight my anxiety levels seem to be somewhat lower - doing all I can to make them get lower and lower.

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Entry Number 21

God I hate needles, sure, I am getting better at just doing them, but I hate them nonetheless!!!!

This morning's needle was so painful when I was trying to push it in, I ended up having to pull it out and find another place.  There were tears and everything.  I haven't had tears for weeks.  Just when I thought I was moving forward, I have taken a big step back.

All in all it has been a stressful weekend and this just was the cherry on the cake, a big black rotten cherry!

So tonight I am off to give myself my night injection and hoping that I find a nice pain free place, no pain going in, no pain during and no pain after.

I feel like all the skin (and whatever is just under your skin) is bruised and sore and it is making me sad.

I fell off the wagon big time this weekend as well, Chinese for tea last night (as the family was over and it was the easiest to do) and then out for lunch today and nothing on the menu was diabetes friendly.  Then dealing with some personal family issues has had me craving chocolate in a huge way, so far I have stayed strong, but I did have some sough dough bread with real butter and cheese as an afternoon snack.

Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully the start of a great week.

One can only hope.

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Entry Number 20

The last week or so have been up and down, I have fallen off the wagon (deliberately) which is not good, but I only have myself to blame on that one.

I really need to get back to checking my BG levels as well, so from Monday I am going to make myself do it every morning and every night for a week.  It is too easy for me to avoid checking and then kidding myself everything must be alright when it probably is not.

I have been contemplating asking a cyber friend to do a guest post here about her diabetes journey, just so there is a different voice and a different perspective as everyone's journey is different.  Just have to get the courage to ask her I suppose, after all she can only say no but she might actually say yes and that would be great.

Health wise I have noticed I have started bruising more easily, especially when injecting my tummy. In fact the other day I had a major bleed under the skin, so I must have hit a small blood vessel.  The last time I did that it took over a month for the bruise to disappear which is a pain in the butt as it means that area is out of bounds until the bruise goes.  I also have a bruise from my latest blood test at the path lab, which is unusual as the lady that took it this time never usually bruises me.

Oh, and the red welts are definitely an allergic reaction of some type, as last week I took a couple of anti-histamines as my sinus were cruddy and the welts all disappeared overnight.  Must mention that to Tim when I see him next.

I did enjoy the beautiful full moon the other night, even opened the blinds so the moonlight could fall on the bed while I slept.  So while I don't necessarily feel a Lightness of Being at the moment, it is not Dark Side of the Moon either, so here is a shot of a gorgeous silver moon sailing across the night sky.

Thanks for popping by. xxx